incessant insects writhing to get free
crawling calling crying out to me
these iritating insects have to be let free
seducing my soul with their soliloquies
passionate promises if i will set them free
smiling blood red lips for non to see
then finally the pressures gone.......
that was held in side of me
these incessant insects of insanity
finaly.............. i cut them free
cut free the anger
and cut free the pain
cut free the sorrow
theres nothing to gain
cleanse out the horror
the agony the blame
cut clean the heart ache
so we might start again
set the pain free
held by my keeper
my mind tortures me
red wash the agony
tattered and torn
my lot I was born
held in the shadows
no rescue from fear
danger so near
Alone i cry my silent crystal tears ..
Smiles of illusion ..
hide an ocean of deepest fears ..
my screams are never heard ..
above the muttering insanity ..
of the deeply disturbed.
lonely mountain top
As I stand on mountain top .. all around ..
silence .. gusting over me ..
deafening .. agonising .. sound ..
Roaring through my head endlessly ..
Blocking out ..locking out ..
all hope and light to see
And as I drown .. beneath dark ocean wave ..
ice cold water ..
pounding .. hounding .. screaming from the grave ..
The preasure .. closing ..
enfolding .. crushing ..
smothering .. me ..
No rescue iminent
to late to be
Darkness closes .. drawing .. nearer ..
tearing .. ripping .. at my soul ..
destroying .. my being ..
destroying my whole ..
Emptyness .. lonlyness ..
incompleat shell ..
No one to rescue me ..
from this living hell
No way out .. no escape .. no hope .. no one to care
No one to run to .. too much to bear ..
Pills forced temptingly .. pushed into my hand .. whispering promises ..
tantalizing .. fantasising ..
to much to .. with stand
Almost of its own will my hand rises ..
to my tourterd twisted face ..
willing me .. chilling me ..
seducing and inducing me ..
to a final .. peace full ..
silent.. last embrace ..
Swallowing greedily ..
i consume my last salvation ..
for the first time i close my eyes
in quite .. peacefull .. calm ..contemplation